Sunday, November 1, 2015

Mary, are you still alive?

Yes, I'm still alive! Even though I've nor spent much time on here.

How about an update?

First, I'm writing like a mad women. I have a BIG surprise!

However, I'm not telling you yet.

I know, I'm cruel.

The second thing I need to tell you is: I'm now the proud owner of a publishing company!

I'm as shocked as you, but I did. Gone Writing Publishing is up and running. I love it. It's probably the greatest thing I've done. Then again, it's also the scariest.

Next, I'm still writing The Ninth Innings Series with Lindsay Paige. We are so excited about this series and the boys are beyond fun to write (and the girls too).

As for anything else...I have nothing. 

I know I should update you on the #FatGirlsStory , but it'll have to wait until another day!!

Have a great week!!

Sunday, July 19, 2015

#FatGirlsStory -- Where did I leave off?

So, I haven't been updating y'all on my story because 1) I've been busy 2) I've been sucking at diet and exercising 3) I don't like to keep telling everyone I'm failing.

Here's what been happening. Last weigh in I was 283. Last week when I weighed in I'm now 292. Let me tell you the tears I've cried seeing that number on the scale.

I hate it thinking I'm so close to 300 lbs. I know it's my own fault and I can't seem to  shoving food into my mouth. I eat when happy, sad, glad, mad, and every single moment in between.

I know that I need to do something about and sitting around belly-aching about it a HUGE drag.

Today, I took some type to get some recipes from Pinterest and I have some small bowls to keep back my portions in control. I have NO...I mean NO Junk Food in this house.

I'm done being fat. I'm done with looking in the mirror and not liking what I'm seeing. I don't like it one single bit!

Time for a final change.

I have made a small goal and I'm going to keep it. I have a BIG convention in November in Huntington, WV called Rebels and Readers.

I weighed myself this morning and I'm still 292 so in 109 days I want to be 250 lbs. That's 42 lbs in 109 days.

I'm going to do it. I'm going to do it.

Monday, June 1, 2015

The Secret Is Out!!

For the past several months Lindsay Paige and I have been hinting around to a secret project. Now, we told you what it was at the end of Tainted (Oh Captain, My Captain Book 7); however, for those who haven't read it yet we're going to let you all in on the secret.

First, it's not HOCKEY! (I know it shocked us too when the stories hit us)

Second, you will be getting 9 books. (Yes, 9 whole books). They will be broken up into Seasons, and they are full length, not novella

Three, the first three books will be on your Kindles and Nooks this fall.

Have you figured out the sport yet? Yes? No? Well, here it is...

The Ninth Inning Series

The Memphis Angels Baseball Team

We will keep you updated on all the release dates!!

Friday, May 22, 2015



Starting today and running through Monday there are 36 authors participating in an awesome author hop! All you have to do is follow the links from page to page and enter each authors giveaway! Everyone have a safe and HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY WEEKEND! 

Once you enter my giveaway make sure to hop on over to Skye Turner  and enter her giveaway!

Comment to enter to win! I'll choose five people to win an ebook of your choice!

*I am solely responsible for this giveaway on my own page*

Monday, May 4, 2015

#FatGirlsStory -- #Epic #Fail Week 3

Week 3....

Where do I start?

Bad news first? Or Good news?

Let's go with the Good News.....

Week 3 of my journey of O-V-E-R!!!!!!!!!!!!

This past week has been the worst I've had in a long time. Not only personally, financially, but even my author life has taken a hit.

I truly have nothing good to say about this week, but that it's over.

Now, I'm sure you're wondering What could be the bad news?

Last week I was so proud of myself that I lost a few pound, but this week I gained it back.

I'm back to 285!

I know it was because I was so stressed I ate everything and anything in sight.

However, I'm going to take this setback and think of it as a learning  experience. Instead of eating, I should have went to the gym and worked off some of my stress.

Lesson learned!

I'm going to get back on track! I promised myself I would and I'm not one to break promises. Especially, if they are this important.

I can do it! 

Sunday, April 26, 2015

#FatGirlsStory Week 2 -- You weigh how much? and Author Updates

Y'all I've had a long week! No joking! It's been the type of week you want to crawl into bed and never leave, with a bottle of wine next to you.

Yep, just like that.

However, there have been high points! So, let's start there,

I exercised everyday last week. This is what I did:

8 miles on stationary bike
3 miles on the elliptical
5 miles on treadmill
50 sit ups
250 stairs on stair master (not in a row! but the whole week)
100 squats (I really did 100 I didn't count the ones I only half squatted)

All in all it was a good week!

Now, onto the BIG QUESTION......

How much weight have I lost?

So, last week I weigh 285. 
I know...I'm big...I got it! 
I don't need anyone to comment and remind me. 
I own a mirror!

I weighed myself this morning and I am ........

wait for it............



I'm so proud of me! 
I know 5 lbs isn't a ton, but you have to start somewhere and I have to go slow. 
I don't want to drop a real fast and put it back on.

Now ... onto the Author front ....

Wow, where do I start on this topic?

Lindsay Paige and I released the sixth book of the Oh Captain, My Captain Series, You and Me Forever.

It seems strange to say it was our sixth book! Let's not forget the three Penalty Kill books, either.

It's almost two years since LP and I started writing together and look were we are! 
Crazy, but wonderful!

We are still working on our super-top-secret project! 
I'm hoping to announce something soon, but nothing yet...,you have to wait...


Now for my solo projects this is what is coming in the next few months:

A New Adult College Football book (this is with the editor and the cover is finished)
A Contemporary Romance (this is finished and about to go to the editor. The cover was a custom shoot with model, William Scott, and the photographer James of Sasserfraz Pictures. I'm so thankful for them to helping me out and I can't wait for y'all to see these pics! This will be out June/July)

I have several others, but nothing concrete for release dates.

That's it ... Those are my current updates!

As always, thank you for everyone who is supporting me and helping me! You all mean the world to me.

Also, to all the fans/readers of my book and the ones I do with LP...y'all are amazing ... THANK YOU!

Sunday, April 19, 2015

Fat Girl's Story: Week 1 - Ripping off the Band-Aid

Last week I started a blog-journey called Fat Girl's Story and I put a line in there about 'ripping off the band-aid'. 

Well, I received a message stating I should be truly honest with everyone. I asked the person what did she mean. She stated if I was going to be honest with everyone I should divulge all the information about myself. 

I did say I wouldn't do that, but she made a point.

But I want to yell....... I DONT WAN TO TELL YOU EVERYTHING!!

Then again....

I said I would tell the truth ... so here it is

Hello, My name is Mary Smith and I'm 35 years old and I'm 285 pounds. I went 26/28 jeans and 5x shirts.

Yep, it's the truth. I'm THAT big.

FYI: this is probably the craziest thing I've ever done. Sure you can look at me and you know I'm overweight. There's no mirage here.

However, telling people my actually weight (besides my doctor) is something I've never EVER EVER done.

But here it is. Well, here I am and I'm putting it all out there. It's only fair if I'm truly going to do this the right way.

I'm well aware I'm never going to be a model. (I know you're shocked by this). I know I'm never going to be in a skinny-miny bikini and I'm okay with all of that.

I want to be healthy. I don't want to go to the doctor every month and see that look in her eyes when she says I've still not lost any weight and it's only getting worse. I don't want to go into a store and the attendant says "Sorry we don't carry those sizes."

I want to be a person who is healthy and I've started doing that!

So here is what I did this week in fitness....

2 1/2 miles on the treadmill
1 mile on the stationary bike
1 mile on the elliptical
65 steps on the stair master
50 sit-ups
30 squats

It's not a lot, but it's more than I've done in the past .... twenty years ... so it's a big accomplishment!!

Now next Sunday I will weigh myself and YES I will post it on here for all the WORLD to see.

So, be easy on the comments please when I don't lose anything....Rome wasn't built in a day! (or so they say!!)

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Fat Girl's Story: The Beginning

I have been overweight my whole life. I've always been that girl. However, it's never bothered me.

Until now...

I'm 35!

I Know RIGHT! It's scary!

However, it's time for a change

I have stopped eating the four main meats (beef, chicken, pork, and turkey). I do occasionally eat seafood and I still eat dairy. So, please don't call me a vegetarian or vegan, because I'm not either of those.

Nonetheless, I'm now eating healthy, And an occasional cheat day. 

So on Monday I took a huge leap off a cliff. Okay not literally; however, I did something I'd never thought I would do.

I joined a gym, And  ... and .... and hired a trainer......

Are you shocked? Trust me I am! Because if you know anything about me is that I hate to sweat and I hate to exercise.

Nonetheless, I have exercised for two days now and I'm still breathing.


So, I'm telling you this because I'm going to be documenting everything I do. Yep, I'm exposing myself via the internet. Now, I WILL NOT be taking any pictures, Well, nothing that I'm going to show yet. But with this story needs to come some band-aid-ripping-pain.

I'm not a 'stress eater' or anything like that. I'm a EATER! I love food and if it's bad for me...I love it more.

and .........

Now since I've changed my eating habits I'm still struggling with portion control. I'm working on it, but it's a high mountain to climb.

So, this is the beginning of the journey. It's going to be embarrassing for me telling you all my ups and downs, but I think (in the end) it will be good. I'm going to get healthy and I starting it today.

My first day at the gym was tough, but I walked one full mile. (Trust me I've never done that before unless I was heading to the corner store for a Little Debbie Zebra cake!) Then I went onto the stationary bike. I went (almost) two full miles there. Apparently, if the zombies attack I need to get my butt onto a bike.

Of course, my legs were burning when I finished. BUT I DID IT!

Now, today I worked on my arms, back, chest, and abs.

Oh the FEELS!

But, I'm still breathing and I'm going back tomorrow.

I'm going to keep everyone updated about this crazy trip that I'm embarking on ...

Until next time!

Monday, January 26, 2015

BOOK REVIEW: The Five Stages of Falling in Love by Rachel Higginson


Elizabeth Carlson is living in the pits of hell- also known as grief. Her husband of eight years, the father of her four children and the love of her life, died from cancer. Grady’s prognosis was grim, even from the start, but Liz never gave up hope he would survive. How could she, when he was everything to her? Six months later, she is trying to pick up the pieces of her shattered life and get the kids to school on time. Both seem impossible. Everything seems impossible these days. When Ben Tyler moves in next door, she is drowning in sorrow and pain, her children are acting out, and the house is falling apart. She has no time for curious new friends or unwanted help, but Ben gives her both. And he doesn’t just want to help her with yard work or cleaning the gutters. Ben wants more from Liz. More than she’s capable of ever giving again. As Liz mourns her dead husband and works her way through the five stages of grief, she finds there’s more of her heart to give than she thought possible. And as new love takes hold, she peels away the guilt and heartache, and discovers there’s more to life than death. 

My Review:

I want to tell you a story. It will be a little lengthy, but worth it. Now, I’ve told this a million times, but I never tire of it.

I had the pleasure of reading Rachel Higginson way back in the day (of 2011/2012). I read her debut novel, Reckless Magic, and instantly fell in love with Kiran. (Now, he’s mine, so back off ladies.) However, the funny part of this story—and why I love to tell it so much—is because of book two, which is Hopeless Magic. At the end of that book, I broke my kindle because I was so mad at Kiran and the cliffhanger I slammed it on my counter.

It was a sad day for me. Not only because of my kindle, but because of Rachel. She ruined Kiran. R-U-I-N-E-D!! 

Oh, I don’t think I had ever been mad at an author before; however, that’s one reason why I love her so much. She’s so good that you go through ever emotion! (BRILLANT!) Needless to say, the rest of that series can’t be measured in all the EPICNESS of the world!

Now, I love Rachel and I can call her friend—which is an honor for me. However, it’s her stories that keep pulling me back to her. It’s not only the Star-Crossed Series (which is still my fave!), or the zombies, but it this story.

The Five Stages of Falling in Love is by far the greatest book I’ve read from Rachel. I’m going to my best to put it into words and PRAY that I do it justice.

Liz is in love with one man, Grady. He’s her husband, best friend—well, soul mate is the best way to say it. But, as life can seem perfect Karma (that evil B****) is always lurking around and Grady is stricken with cancer. Liz never thought that she would be a widow. (This isn’t a spoiler is in the blurb). Now, she has to continue life with alone and try to be strong for her four children.

As it all seems to building around her, Ben—her new neighbor—pops into her life. Now, I’m sure you’re thinking, “Oh I know where this is going.” … NO YOU DON’T!!!

This book made me laugh, CRY—a lot of tears—and, above all LOVE. I don’t know how Rachel does it. I absolutely LOVE Liz and Ben.
Let’s be honest for a moment…had I read this book ten years ago I may not have all these feelings. However, I’m married to my soul mate, and reading this book it got me thinking of the ‘what if’ and such. What if something happened to my husband? What would I do? Could I ever love again? As I turn the pages of Liz’s story I felt all her pain, denial of Ben and her life, the hurt of Grady not being there and the process of all her life happenings.

Bravo Rachel!

I mean that from the bottom of my book nerd soul! This is a masterpiece and I can’t wait to share it with everyone to read!